GRIEVING

I vaguely remember typing this post some time last week, but for some reason it never published.  Consequently I found it tonight when I logged in to type a new post.  

I was scanning through a bunch of music in my Ipod between schools on Monday and found the City of Angels soundtrack.  It used to be one of my favorites, but I haven't listened to it since August.  I think part of me was afraid to listen to it, and part of me has simply gravitated toward music that will teleport me into a different world.  Anyway, one of the songs that Peter Gabriel sings, I Grieve, caught me on Monday.  I have listened to it hundreds of times before, but now it has all new meaning.  For those who are unfamiliar, the lyrics are below...I have bolded some of the words that really speak to me. 

It was only one hour ago

It was all so different then

There's nothing yet has really sunk in

Looks like it always did

This flesh and bone

It's just the way that we are tied in

Now there's no-one home

I grieve for you

You leave me

So hard to move on

Still loving what's gone

They say life carries on

Carries on and on and on and on

The news that truly shocks 
Is the empty empty page

While the final rattle rocks 
It's empty empty cage

And I can't handle this

I grieve for you

You leave me

Let it out and move on

Missing what's gone

They say life carries on

They say life carries on and on and on

Life carries on

In the people I meet

In everyone that's out on the street

In all the dogs and cats

In the flies and rats

In the rot and the rust

In the ashes and the dust

Life carries on and on and on and on

Life carries on and on and on

It's just the car that we ride in

A home we reside in

The face that we hide in

The way we are tied in

And life carries on and on and on and on

Life carries on and on and on

Did I dream this belief?

Or did I believe this dream?

Now I can find relief

I grieve.