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Monday, March 8, 2010

THE BOTTOM

I can't say that it was completely without warning, but I was still a bit surprised when I had the biggest emotional 'break' that I have had in the last 6 months in the shower this morning.  I can honestly say that I thought that I was past this point, at least until we start reliving the emotions when Jellybean arrives, but I guess that I was wrong.  Perhaps I am going to run this emotional roller coaster now and have less of it when Jellybean arrives?  Who knows.  All I know is that I was so shaken this morning that I did not go to work, and generally it takes being at death's door to keep me home.  In light of the fact that I was emotionally feeling so shitty, Jeff and I finally put up the shelf that his parents got us for Christmas.  It was specifically for us to display some of Gracie's things.  It has helped me to feel a little better, but just a little. 

 


I also want to give a shout out to Katy over at In Hannah's Honor to say thanks for Gracie's beautiful wooden memorial plaque.  If you haven't visited her Etsy store, yet, check it out!! 






10 comments:

La Cubanita said...

what a wonderful shelf! The quilt is beautiful! I need to get a little shelf or corner to honor my angels memory too.

The Blue Sparrow said...

I love the shelf and Gracies things! They look wonderful. Take care of yourself Susan! I still have these breaks too and strangley enought they almost always happen in the shower or in the car. *HUGS*

Jill said...

The shelf looks wonderful! I love the bear with the 'G' on it. So adorable.

jamie said...

WHat a wonderful self! I am glad it helped you feel a little better. It is so odd how some days are just HARD when we least expect it.

Wishing you a happier tomorrow!

Maggie said...

That is beautiful! I love those little willow figurines. I think they are so sweet. Take care of yourself this week, thinking of you!

Bree said...

that is exactly what happened to me this morning. i was laying in bed and all of a sudden burst in to hysterical tears. i think i just about gave my husband a heart attack. i understand. sending love your way. gracie's space is beautiful and i love the collage jess created for her. she was so beautiful!

Kathi said...

It is such a rollercoaster ride we are on. It still shocks me how intense the 'down' feelings are... but I supose it is a sign of how much we loved and miss our chidren - and always will.
The shelf is beuatiful and I love the quilt, did you make it for Gracie?

Holly said...

I love Gracie's shelf. It's nice to have a place for all their things.

I'm sorry it was so rough for you. You just never know when you might be hit. ((hug))

Heather said...

I love the shelf - what a wonderful way to display her things. I'm so sorry you had a bad day...I know they are inevitable, but I always hate hearing about it just the same.

(((hugs)))

Jessica said...

I absolutely love the shelf!! It is beautiful.

*hugs* Thinking of you. I am so sorry you had such an emotional day. Praying for peace for you as you prepare for jellybean.