tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8647730545372700763.post990239522216100102..comments2023-04-26T09:37:49.001-04:00Comments on Our Lives Forever Changed: #12 - REFLECTIONSSusanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14814373587860281157noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8647730545372700763.post-74759824230691784062009-10-31T07:52:08.687-04:002009-10-31T07:52:08.687-04:00I wish I had been this wise when I was 13 weeks ou...I wish I had been this wise when I was 13 weeks out from my loss! I still felt bitter and spent way too much time in the bathroom at work crying! <br /><br />I can give you a glimpse into how you may feel when you get pregnant again. Seeing the new baby's heartbeat on the u/s machine will bring tears of joy and sadness. For me, that was the first time that it hit me when that I wasn't pregnant with Lily. I often wonder how I will convey to Cooper how much we are blessed to have him in our lives and also convey to him how much we love his sister in heaven. I'd like to think that if Lily hadn't of died that we would still be pregnant and having Cooper, but who knows? Would you give up this baby to have the one you lost? Its hard but it still doesn't rob the joy and excitement of this little one...<br /><br />You learn you're way through this new maze of emotions...15 months out from losing Lily and there are still days that I cry out of nowhere but there are more days now that I can look at her pictures and feel amazed that my hubby and I created such a beautiful and perfect human being...<br /><br />God bless you and ((Hugs))Jenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02695243793883254621noreply@blogger.com